I really hate to baw, I really do. But, why do I feel I should have had a job a long time ago, I feel that every time I go out to capabilities (a job program that is helping me to find a job) I feel I’m just wasting my time, I feel its not helping me much, I haven’t scored an interview since June and I’m hoping to find work soon as I’d just want to have money, and save so I can do stuff, like travel. Only 2 months away from the anniversary since my last job ended. I wish that job was permanent. ._.’ But I don’t care anymore, I want to have a new job, is that so much to ask these days?

I’m sick of being unemployed.

/rant

You know, besides the When they Cry (Higurashi, Kai, and Umineko) series, there hasn’t been that many recent series I’ve been wanting to get into with some exceptions like, K-ON!, Kuroshitsuji (black butler) and Black Rock Shooter, but there was just one series I just caved to download…

AngelBeats!

When I heard about this series, and when I did more research, I figured out one of my favorite writers ever, Jun Maeda was writing this series, I knew I had to see this, I’ve been a fan of his works for a long time (Kanon, AIR and Clannad) and would love to see him come to a con sometime. XD So yesterday, I decided to download it…

When I watched it, I was instantly hooked, everything about the series was beautiful, the animation, the voice acting, the storyline, and the music, oh my god, the music – godly. Without spoiling, the series is basically about a high school in the afterlife, in this school they learn how to give up their lingering attachments to their previous lives. The series revolves around a rebel group called the SSS which aims to confront God for the terrible lives they had.

Hopefully that wasn’t too spoileriffic, I’m not that good with writing spoilerfree reviews. But, my thoughts on AngelBeats!, I thought it was pretty damn good, though there were some things that did make me scratch my head, but I don’t want to spoil as I want to see everyone watch this series. But, this series is definitely a tearjerker for me, there were quite a few times where I outright bawwed, either because of sadness, or because of something sweet and nice. Jun Maeda’s writing is the source of manly tears for me, but in a good way of course. I don’t know how he does it.

I know fansubs are the devil, but the sub I watched didn’t have too many translation freakouts or funny inaccuracies that I can recall at the mo (though I wish they translated the Kanji for the names fro the opener so I could memorize the names good). But yes, I will support the series, either by getting the Japanese BD’s (since my new computer can play ‘em and also Japan and North America are on the same Blu-ray region) or if a company picks it up, and I hope its Funimation, I can picture a few Voice actors from there doing the characters justice, I can picture Greg Ayers voicing Oyama, and Vic Mignogna voicing Naoi or Otonashii.

I recommend(!!) that you see this series.

And now the ending theme (such a beautiful song)

Angel Beats– Brave Song.

Well off I go for now. Might write more soon.

As of recent, I just got a new computer and been rocking awesome with it. Though, I still think it’ll be a while until you see anything big from me, but its all up in the AIR.

Oh, did I just hint at something? I might have. Who knows? Hahaha. But yes, oh, my friend from The Netherlands has been in town for a while, and tomorrow (technically its today since its 2:20AM), I get to see her; to be honest, I’m VERY nervous, I just hope I can give her a good IRL impression and I hope that everything will not be awkward.

As for videos, there is some I want to release, but unfortunately, I keep getting an error when I try to upload, its this bad value error I keep getting and I have NO IDEA on how to fix it and forums are being very vague. I hope I can figure this out as I want to release some more videos including ones that didn’t make it due to my old computer’s limitations or whatev. New videos should be coming once I have that shit sorted out.

As for anything else, well besides being jobless since Oct 2009, and let me tell you, its felt like years, sure I got some free time and a new computer to play around with until a job comes, but I just want to make money, plain and simple and feed my addictions (not of the drug kind either, hah).

I’m going to go get some sleep. I’m going to make sure this visit is unforgettable for her!!

See you all later for now.

I need to get back to writing into this thing more often.

I don’t know about you guys, but I don’t think anyone seems to understand how I feel when it comes to friendships. I have a strong devotion to them, hell, I put them before me or my family. Because my friends made me who I am today, and they did a damn good job than my family can ever dream of. Seriously, my mom, my dad, hell, not even my sisters understand how I feel when it comes to my friends.

But I don’t know about you guys, but I’m not sure if I should just give up hope on going to Canada… it seems if I tell BVR to hold off on job searching because I got plans, it seems they’ll just reject me and that’ll be the end of it, also, mom really wants me to get a job. But, I wanna see my friends… the friends that seem to give a damn about me and  my own well being. I don’t know about you, but I hate being left out of anything. I really do.

When I do tell BVR, I hope they’ll be understanding, and I hope we can work on some things like interviewing skills, and community job evaluations and decide later.

Well, that’s all for this edition of shit that no one cares about.

These past two weeks have been nothing but hell for me. Losing a friend (which in retrospect wasn't a big loss), kinda being discriminated at work all because I'm not a part of their faggy ass union (no offense to gays btw, I only use those terms to describe something when I'm real pissed off), so I'm only doing warehouse (and some custodial) and none of the kitchen stuff, which really kinda sucks, our program didn't have an issue with this, but now its me during the summer its suddenly an issue to your union? Fuck you guys. You all don't deserve me, the reason why I don't quit, is because I need the money, because, its the economy and we all know how up the ass when it comes to finding jobs. Because I need to live, and also I gotta feed that videogame, anime, movie addiction somehow, and not to mention get parts for a new computer as well. So, I'm willing to go through hell and back just so I can live and buy shit and pay the bills... and shit like that.

 
And speaking of money...

I was trying to get my paycheck at the FUCKING AGENCY BUT GUESS THE FUCK WHAT?! IT WASN'T THERE. THOSE COCKSUCKING BASTARDS.

I didn't fucking know I was supposed to call, or else they go out to the worksites and deliver it there, I didn't have to do this when I was at meadowdale. That's just complete and utter bullshit, I was so glad I didn't go on a killing rampage.
I felt real angry and depressed and kept it in, then I had a breakdown I thought I was going to faint, or do something real stupid. So I took a nap and talked to one of my best close friends on skype, who has really been awesome throughout all this, and I thank her, when I go up to Canada to see her, I'm going to give her a hug for all she's done for me, she's a godsend next to Amanda and Leah.

I just want to be happy again, but nothing seems to be making me happy (get your mind out of the gutter assholes) at the moment, except for the new transformers movie (WHICH KICKED ASS! Fuck you critics and your bias bullshit for "oscar worthy" and "serious business" movies) and the fact that the new Miyazaki (yeah, I'm a Miyazaki fag, shut up) film, "Ponyo on the cliff by the sea" will be out soon IN AMERICA! -shot for using an overused meme- Though I would have liked to see what his son's movie Earthsea (which is based on a book), I don't care if it apparently "sucked" I just want to see it and how it turned out.
That's all I have to say. I'm really sorry if I've been worrying, bothering, annoying, pissing you off, etc. with my emoness. I hope I can get over this soon...

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